However, my view on fashion couldn’t have changed more in the past few years. Depression destroyed my self-worth until there was nothing left – even the simplest tasks are slowed down by my self-doubts. Getting dressed wasn’t an exception, as simple as it may sound. All I wanted to do is hide – disappear. Something that isn’t my actual style at all.

I’ll be honest with you, it’s still a difficult subject. Getting ready for photos or even standing in front of the camera – a sore spot where I unfortunately always realize how little self-love I have left for myself. It may sound harsh, but it’s probably one of the worst symptoms of my depression, I’m my own worst enemy.

But I’m working on it. So I try to escape my depression uniform at least 1-2 times a month. And you know what, it’s starting to feel good again. Playing with clothes that make me feel good. In which I even feel a little bit self-confident again. Even though I’m a believer that you should feel good from the inside first. We all have to admit, a good outfit simply has this feelgood effect. And good has a very individual meaning here. For me it was a light knit maxi dress, quality accessories & Vintage details – I felt safe in it. Not in the sense of hiding, but more that I just felt a little bit like myself again.